Semantic Contract

Start over.

I wrote this post once, and my writing turned into a rant. My gut has been hurting for several days now, and I am losing patience with the irritation. Over the months I have tuned my diet. I have eliminated ice creams and shake. Reduced to minimal salt intake. I started removing the cheese off at restaurants and fast foods. Went to mostly home cook meals and simple take out. Now I am two months without any sort of junk food. Purely home cooked meals and store bought items.

Never in my life has my health been better. Despite the high weight levels and health problems. The foundations are sturdy, and they are only getting reliable.

I try not to rant here. I may express my frustrations and trauma, but I want the writing to remind me of hope. There are many good things to be grateful for. My rants live in my journal, and even there I try to not to go too crazy. I save my most negative voice when I cry and let it all out. There are different avenues to process events, and I am an avid believer in being human. No shame in feeling weak. No bother for needing help. These are the attitudes I live by. And if I lack compassion, or empathy, I sure try to get out of my own skin and notice other people. All of us are a work in progress. Little more shine for the next blue skies and deep hues for the blooming clouds above. If darkness stains our shine, its okay to take time for yourself. Its okay to fail. The day will come when your steps will know what to do. You will get there. 

Do not lose hope. Find your means to take the next step. Its different for everyone. Social status is meaningless. Trends are temporary. The investments are important. Your own investments do matter. If you find it, build it and nurture your growth, the investment will give forever. Let your very being expand. Let continual learning be in your life. We are all working out the very pressures that cause us to cry. Strength is not force it is attitude. The right attitude will find what you need for you. I am not mentioning the law of attraction nor any mystical force. Its really simple. What we look for is what we will find. And if it is missing then that is what will be in the report. Go and build. Seek for what is missing. Do not let yourself sit and give up. You are worth all your own efforts.

I have had many people dismiss my own social nightmares. They are real because people do bad things. They act ugly. And pretending that I have a fear of rejection to cover that reality is wrong. Even in the most ideal and righteous social communities, where morals are taught, evil people are among the good. 

You are worth being heard. You are worth because you are a human being. An individual who has the strength to succeed. Find it. Treasure your own gifts. Treasure your growing and budding life.

You do not need me to validate to be real. Honestly. Its normal for a person not to like someone for a senseless reason. I am not going to get along for the mentality of everyone. Not every individual is going to want to laugh with me or chat over at a quiet corner.  That is completely fine. Normal even.

We can do better than normal. Even if the grander ideas form only occasionally. Imperfection exists in all our domains. In all of our actions. Just once in a while smile and act with kindness.

I believe in respect. I believe in compassion. I believe in social progress. In promoting peace with different ideologies and practices. The fundamental nature of mortality. We are rich because people live differently. When compassion reaches beyond social boundaries, then rest happens. Kindness is recharging.

Innovation will happen. Even at rapid speeds. 

The universe is looked upon together. And we marvel at our blue planet. 

Wondering who made this all? Where does the fire go? Supernovas lighting up light. History is alive. Distances crossed beyond all understanding. 

Yet we know that such distances are crossed by simple means. We have yet to discover the atoms beneath the atoms. The complex numbers where math does math. The pattern filled by multiple languages.

The semantic contract. Is this a word? The phrase means, to me at least, that we work through meaning. Our words are written in code. The software open sourced. We form trust through common words. The code is the contract. A bond that indeed cross many boundaries. Even across our solar system. With probes and bots. Factories in orbit. Our Moon sits there in orbit, but we move across and around.

Written software are social in nature, but solitary. I form a system that is relied upon by me. If others use it, fine. The nature of semantics is providing meaning through written mediums. The trust is formed between the developer and code. And the code with the user. Our software cycles are feedback loops. Each movement more semantics are made and are invented. Layers out of common patterns.

I have been isolated and have chosen to isolate. There has been both. My code is the social aspect receiving the light of day. If I form semantic systems, then I am forming bonds with people. Not one where I am with them as a person, but my actions may be helpful. My ideas supportive. Open source software is the place where people are free to build. Communities with different goals sharing their work. I like to be part of that. This is the semantic meaning. Sharing meaning through created languages that we can share. Where bonds are formed like atoms through structured work. Netural yet helpful.

If I laugh at dumb console.log or print() jokes, then more power to the process. If I create matrices to form graphics, the clunky dots come alive to sing. I listen then iterate. My software is shared with others. Its there to be seen. Semantics working. Building and creating value. Having fun in being active and energized by my craftsmanship. Learning from mistakes. Learning from others. 

Teaching through my work and sharing my learning. I love the idea that I could help people help themselves. I am one node upon the open source network. If my writing reaches out and removes pitfalls or can explain concepts, then that is fantastic. Worth the effort even if I am still invisible. I own my identity and I act with authenticity. My actions will bring more learning. As I learn from my mistakes and develop as a person. Growth until my days run out. 

Then as I believe in my own beliefs, my learning will continue in the next life. Until I know everything as they are known. Eternal Truth. Light that is forever. History traveling vast distances and reaching diverse places. This is where my faith and prayers go. Everyday I strive to be a better person. To have better understanding of the world and how to be active in it. To love and be loved. 

Human beings are infinite in their potential. Every single person has infinite worth to grow and struggles to be won. Journeys fought and protected. No matter who you are you deserve every chance to restart anew. Knowledge shared and skills obtained. Life improved. Life bent and discovered. Climb those mountains and cross the deep blue. There is purpose to be found. There is hope for every person who wants hope. 

I believe that good is not lost, but shared. They are not tokens of wealth but of choices. Choices to be better. Choices to care. Choices to look outside of our own sphere. Domains meet domains. Greetings sent. Salutations raised. Libraries formed. Reading, writing and engineering. Voices raised out and ears listening. Respect for every corner. Laughing seen among diverse groups over common goals. Meeting the virtue of giving a care.

This ideal is formed in every action. It is not a place but state of heart. They are not awards, nor victories, or conquering. They are formed today through daily rhythm. Right actions live with simple gestures. Simple attitudes. Simple nods and simple bows. They are warm candles for the dark room so writing may write. Humans need a little bit of light to walk straight. Once they do watch them take off. They will take flight with human arms and legs. The air will be confused as humans move past the need to stare up when they can move up. Not of pride. Not of wealth, but through skills they obtained through accessed learning and opportunity. Then they contribute to the network. Add more knowledge. More access.