Fall Cleaning

Woke up. Iced my back. Yesterday I stretched further. Pushing my walking time more. Enabling better growth. And man, it felt good. This was no price tag.

It was investment.

Greater flow, greater control.

However. Asthma.

Yeah it was air quality issues. The State I live in is struggling with pollution, wild fires and other assortment of reasons. The air used to be fine. No breathing problems. I grew up in the Evergreen State. And allergies caused hell for me between April and late July. Moved away. For eight years, barely two weeks of itchy eyes and breathing problems. Two weeks out of the whole year. This being late May and early June.

Now the whole routine has changed. Fall, Spring and Summer I have daily breathing issues. Winter is still difficult, but for some reason the air feels a little better.

Hmmm. I wonder if this would make a great Raspberry Pi project. I have a couple in my office and I been looking for a use for them. 

I'm writing as I think here. This is a good idea. I am very interested in embedded programming and circuit design. I also have a raspberry pico. This sounds like an online visit to Amazon to find additional sensors. Particularly for air quality, humidity and other environmental monitoring. I might already have some of the sensors. I just need to check my pico kit.

I took a college course in Digital Design. Where I learned my first lessons in binary and logic gates. That was the most fun I had in a course. The instructor was very helpful. The final project of the course was designing a micro processor in Logism. The micro processor needed to ADD, store in D Flip Flop logic circuit, use addressing, look up opcodes, and then finally print text to the screen. Pure magic. I had so much enthusiasm and fun that I turned the project in early. Ha ha. Noice.

Digital Fundamentals course was taken in 2018. I don't remember all the specifics, but I have the concepts crystallized. All it takes is a quick lookup to connect the dots again. And boy, I love all the computer science. What a great day to be in. So much fun with symbols, design and engineering. 

I do want to learn like that again. My daily life is learning. I read books weekly, and I chat with AI on questions I am pondering through.

Maybe I am looking for a course. Or maybe I miss the ground zero feel. Nah. Not ground zero. Of late, the theme of my studies is connecting different modules together. My theoretical knowledge is scattered, and only by applying my learning will everything be connected. Finally. From mind to endeavor to finale of work well done. That is my goal. This is what I write about.

Every opportunity is birthed today. And tomorrow is anticipation. If I had a tail, it would be wagging right now. I have been cooped up for far too long. And my energy is like a young puppy rushing out in the park. Which brings me back to the topic of this post.

Fall cleaning. Yeah. I cleaned up my bedroom. And it took a few hours. My office is different. I always keep my office pristine and clean. As it is my creative zone. On the other hand, where I sleep doesn't matter as much.

I deal with dark elements in my life. Consequences of prolonged trauma. These latent effects are never easy. It latches on. Then at some point the invasion becomes part of your life. Trauma scars your heart. Even shattering it. We are dealing with a infection. A sickness that needs care and kindness.

Back in 2004, I got a Nintendo DS system. The handheld came with the Metroid Prime Demo. I obtained the handheld, but the new, playable games were promised on Christmas Day. The demo became my new friend. It was like me looking at the window, daydreaming, waiting for the day to move on. In the Demo, you reach towards the end of the level, and this freaky creature rushes at you and latches onto your face. Sucks the soul out of ya. I never played Metroid, so I didn't understand exactly what was going on. It stressed me out until I learned to shoot rockets at it. Which is probably why I haven't played Metroid since. 

When I deal with these darker elements, I want to clamp down and fight, and it only makes the problem worse.

I am clawing at the darkness. Desperate for the gunk to leave my eyes and heart.

Through my studies and prayers, I have felt a new direction.

Invite the Light in. A life nourished by a heart seeking light will drive the darkness away. Darkness thrives on contention. It wants us to fight anger with anger. To look at filth and stab it with our weapons. Destruction only breeds destruction.

On the other hand.

Light spreads. We are invited to be better. I will never feel threatened by light because it respects my agency. I will always be in control, and that is what light is all about. It wants to preserve my ability to choose. Light is our resource to build with.

I am able to shut out darkness. Seal away the leaks. And increase the potency of good. Find my strength of endurance to move forward my life. This is not some bizarre race of tortoise and hare. Rabbit feet. Speedy flight. Yeah, no.

What other people do doesn't matter. I learn to apply myself in the best direction I know how. Some things will come natural. Others will take work. I accumulate with my investment.

So today I cleaned my room. Its simple. A weave is done through simple actions. And the feel of my clean bedroom is wonderful. Adding a little bit more sunshine and a little less dust to deal with.

I hurt my back and neck. I iced for most of the evening. Before I cleaned my bedroom, I did VR gaming. Since there is air quality issues right now, that was my choice of exercise for the day. Don't know what came over me, but I went for the gold. And now my sleeping quarters has a gentle feel to it. Its cozy.

Worth the zeal. I am not stuck in the chair anymore. There is no backlash. I am obtaining resilience.