Finding simplicity today

To be authentic is never easy.

To be vulnerable from and after humble beginnings. Yet your growth is personal, lean and rewarding. I have been vulnerable. I have taken time to think. I do not regret stumbling.

Life is no season. Its just there. The wind gently pulling on your face. The sun rising every morning. I have made the stupidest cliche mistakes. I even saw dozens of movies showcasing, and I swore, I would never make those mistakes. Yet I did. And I might even still.

Is cliche a stereotype? If I make the stupid mistake of being stupid, does that make me one dimensional? Bound to a class? No way, man. Not even close. I am growing person. Pushing the boundaries. Clipping the old so I may become something better. I embraced the symbol of the phoenix because I reinvent.

Burn, revive and change.

The magenta tiger is my fiery blood pumping across the ethereal side. Temporary boost biding my study of the chase. It will stop at nothing for the hunt. Through the jungle, after the prey and back to the den. The phoenix will always be my heart. Reinvent. Change and overcome. I am duality, and I accept myself. I am not a chimera. My scope is superposition. That gives me infinite variety in my soul. As the span of i and j multiplied by scalar will give me the whole span of linear space. Language wraps any medium. Every language can describe something more.

Any human being can reach out and overcome. They just need to choose.

Keep going on with your own esteem. Get to know yourself.

Composing is wisdom. Gentleness is my self-awareness. Tending heart beats that awareness like the tiger with my claws. Gentle yet forward. Kind but assertive. Submissive yet confident. Leading but following. A cycle of yin and to yang. Then back around. Flowing across the sea of space. 

Does the earth even know what forever might be?

I find that as I make choices of so little knowledge of the present, glaring past and obviously the future, my fear disregards my own personable imperfection. I'm so glad that I changed my rhythm. Every moment is easily fresh. No matter if I get interrupted, fall apart or get distracted, the next moment is a new beginning. 

I have coded today, read a little about programming language creation and pondered more about my ideas and ambitions. People are important. My life is important. Their emotions are important. I have my own emotions. And the cycle races across the world and the radio goes nuts as the mind takes it all in. So what's next.

Last night, I watched a ruby conference where the creator of Ruby, Ruby on Rails and the CEO of Shopify chatted for together for a while. I loved hearing them talk. They had some awesome viewpoints. Coding is indeed incredibly fun. Programming is meant to resemble the desire of the programmer. And why else? I choose to code because I enjoy the freedom, the creativity and possibility. Even when I struggle with my own health and the weight formally places heavy resistance. My own journey is also a companion to me.

Every beginning is the rhythm. I learn new things, and I pick which one resonates with me. Simple. The next step is only here. Only for one moment. Then we go forward. While learning as we of course make mistakes. Nobody has to be stuck and stagnant. Proactive is one great rewarding mechanism. Staying is only temporary. Crank that wheel and get it spinning.

This means that programming is optimal for the human mind. Each language is meant to express what is difficult to describe elsewhere. My own understanding of this concept was deepened while watching Matz in another conference. He is describing what programming might be in the AI age and his own educated opinion. And he is making a very fair point about languages. He mentioned Mathematics enabling people to form greater abstract thoughts. That simplifies and opens the bottle neck of our own human minds. He was promoting Ruby, but I started thinking about his explanation in more broad terms. 

The scope in my mind is not as narrow, and I understand why he is behind Ruby. It is a wonderful language. I am still learning, so I am not ready to say "this language is the best." I think I am more of a fan in picking and choosing different languages. Even if Rust is my favorite. And when he made fun of Rust I also chuckled. I love the varieties in different communities. The different viewpoints. The richness they provide for the open source world. And all the jabs are in good fun. Its nice to have strong affiliation to your community in the programming world. That kind of volunteer and devotion is where I want to go. I want to, and will, open source my projects and share out to the community and the world. I am excited to see where my projects take me.

Sounds like a blast.

I am very impressed with what I have seen among the leaders of the Ruby community. They have piqued my interest to explore Ruby more. And even Ruby on Rails.

Matz mentioned the new JIT compilers are written in Rust. This gives me something to explore. 

I have searched briefly for bindings integrating Ruby and Rust, but I am unfamiliar with the landscape. I don't trust what AI tells me. That is my policy. I use AI to learn, but I need the confidence, or enough knowledge, to know if they are accurate. So far every topic I have chatted AI with is something I have studied in the past, and have been using AI to assist me in connect the dots at a faster pace. I am new to Ruby, and I will need to dig at reading resources and videos to get me more up to speed with the software technology.

I suspect there might be more integration coding with me later. I have been learning the system language Rust since, I think, 2018. My desire is to finish my markdown project in Rust. If the project becomes something more than just a small project then Ruby will be included. From what I have seen, I think Ruby is great for text. 

Yeah, that might be a duh statement, but hey, I am new here. 

Metaprogramming in Ruby seem exceptionally well made, and that excites me. Maybe I will practice DSL creation in Ruby rather than Rust. Then use Rust if I want to implement a faster DSL. All possible with one step at a time. Remembering to continue and embrace every development, every mistake.

My journey is still fresh, and even if it becomes seasoned, so much sweeter it will become. Software is an opportunity to dig further into languages. I am learning about myself as I push change, and maybe build something that other people may use with a click and a tap. I might even make some greater steps than I have ever thought could cascade and ripple out. Who cares? This is where I want to go. Today is for now.